beauty on a budget

Having clean-and-clear skin is every woman’s dream.

Isn’t it?

I personally don’t have that crystal-clear skin but yes, I do (still) want to accomplish my ultimate goal:

                             to have a clean, smoother and spot-free facial skin.

As simple as that. 

Facial skin with 

It doesn’t have to be all luminous, very bright (or even too-bright until you think you’re gonna need to put your Ray Bans on when talking to me, LoL)

We all know that everybody’s skin condition is different from one another and one product I use, don’t always work for her or them or vice versa. 

Well some of them might, but fortune handles the rest.

Bless those who were born with silver spoon on their mouth so that they can actually take a really good care of their skin (because they can afford it!!) by giving it nutritional skin food (overly-priced facial serums and creams which even with all my one month salary can’t cover the price of one-range of its treatment!).

#soenvious #NOWONDERTHEYLOOKPRETTYALLTHETIMES #lol

Therefore, we can’t talk about being pretty without talking about budget.

Come on, there’s a price a girl must pay to look good. 

Everyone knows about it.

But talking about budget doesn’t mean that you’ve got to splurge on all of those what-so-called “holy grail” products (everyone’s talking about) or even aesthetic or beauty clinics everyone’s going to.

According to a definition from Cambridge online dictionary, BUDGET means:

è   a plan to show how much money a person organization will earn and how much they will need or be able to spend.

Well there are actually tons of BUDGET definitions but I kinda like and agree with this one. A person will need a plan to show how much money he/she can earn and how good their organization to spend (and off course, do some extra savings). 

I typed “how much money”, “earn” and “spend” in BOLD because they are the keywords. 

You know how are you going to have the money, you know exactly how much it is, you know how to spend it, sensibly, but still… are able to manage some savings in any case.

I know we’re only humans, ordinary girls. 

Sometimes we’ve got this urges to shop and spend ALL of our monthly incoming just because we’re sooo tempted of trying new beauty products. 

I am very used to with online-shopping. I’ve been doing that ever since I was still at college (it means a decade ago where online-shopping was not as FLOURISHING as it is nowadays). Now that I’m working with close coworkers which are ALL as-beauty-junkie-as myself (plus we are all now do online-shopping anyplace and at any time we want, thank’s to TECHNOLOGY) so I guess I am a more beautyjunkie-er than ever lOl

We exchange infos about new stuff, online shopping who sell low-priced beauty products (and we often order collectively because it makes A GOOD DEAL of shipping fee) et cetera. So thrilled when our products are arrived (we ship it to office so when they come we’ll just excitedly grab ours and talk about it almost all-day-long) and we keep on talking about beauty products literally EVERYDAY, while we have time, when we’re not swamped with work, LoL.

So how is it related with BUDGET? Me (and my friends) are beauty junkie (I’ve mentioned this a lot of times already, right?) but we spend (pretty) wisely. I’m not defending myself nor my friends but even when we regularly spend money on beauty products but we’re nothing like those beauty bloggers who spend and splurge A LOT OF MONEY on lavish products, say YSL, Tom Ford, Chanel, Laura Mercier, Guerlain, the list goes on. 

We do, buy high-ends products like MAC, TOO FACED, or like myself I buy L’Occitane and Kiehl’s (we can’t say those two brands are “high-ends” but they’re not “inexpensive” either, right?) but we know that taking care of our skin is in our genes. 

Our facial skin is our asset and I don’t want to jeopardize ourselves, trying on just any products because it’s “cheap” (and here, I’m not implying that cheap products are not good for your skin. Don’t get me wrong) so we’ve gotta choose products we buy and put on our faces. 

Right? :D :p

Deja Vu

Starting something, particularly something for the first time, has never been easy.

Every beginning is always TOUGH, well… say you DID jump into it once (yeah but it was decades ago) then you stopped then out of nowhere then you’re starting it all over again now, it’s a different story in a whole different level and dimension. You’ve got different experiences while you relentlessly have been expanding slots in your brain (poor brain!!) to store literally ALL feelings such as happiness, pain, bitterness, happiness, joy, sorrow, heartbreaks, the list goes on. 

Let’s say, you DID start something that made you super-excited, it was overpowering you, you breathed it, ate with it, went far and wide thinking about it, even slept dreaming about it. 

Then come hell or high water, something stopped you from doing it… tore you and your passion apart until one day you woke up in one morning realizing that you could actually live WITHOUT it.

For some time, you believed in that feeling, knowing you were actually captivated by some new things that brought you thrilling feelings you’d never known existed. In an instance you assumed that you’ve found your new passion. 

This is your life and this is what you want.

As time goes by, you’re starting to feel hollow. The echoes from the past resonate endlessly. Like you were woken up from a dream that reminded you… you were somewhere else, doing something else which actually made you feel like you were pretty much being yourself ALL THE TIME.

Without having to pretend, without having to hide behind the curtain to cover your true colors. Something in the past that actually remain soundless deep down inside, waiting to be woken up and revived. 
It has been a part of you that actually just altered into something (that you once believed) was “new” just because it felt and seen and sounded and tasted different while actually it was still the same thing. 

It never changed, it only "changed" in your mind and perception.

It altered because of your neediness for it to follow your endless motion, your desolate thoughts and your deprivation of feeling something new, whereas that “something new” you want isn’t essentially “there” or “felt”. It’s just your lovely misconception that will break and leave you emotionless and fragile once it decides to wander someplace new, to feel “something” that it thinks “new”.

Just like you did, long time ago.

So you decided that echoing sounds from the past that keep on calling your name, that you once left, has permanently been a part of you.

And that part of me that I once left but now I realize it’s never going anywhere, is writing.